Legatus 505

Come in
Do you read me?
I rise, I fall
Back to the ground
I lied, complied
And yet still decay
I fight, I thrive
By killing myself
Somehow survive another day
Should I measure the time I have?
Should I ever dream my own dream?
Should I ever become myself?
Have a mouth but no scream
Open my grey iis so to see
This world that I thought
Would be my grave
Survived, I survived
But this path made of bones
Is one that I paved
Gave up my heart but I am trapped
In this undying form of metal
I killed the weak parts I possess
All thorns
No use for a petal
Time comes, time goes
I can't control
I gave, I take
More than it may see
Blood spilled, I killed
Carried all my sins
Now how can I accept this dream?
Do I even see what I want?
Do I feel that which I have lost?
Do I deserve this love I've got?
Some lines can't be uncrossed
Open my grey iis so to see
This world which I can
Not call my own
Survived, I survived
But that field made of bones
Must reap what I've sown
Gave up my heart
But I am trapped
In this unending mission of mine
I killed the weak parts I possess
Can I return behind the line
But suddenly
I saw the lights that lit up my black world
With four different color lights
I try to grab them with my hand
Even though those colors bled to red in the past
But suddenly
I saw the lights that lit up my black world
With four different color lights
I try to grab them with my hand
Even though those colors fade to grey in the past
Open my grey iis so to see
This world in which I'm truly alive
Survived, I survived
But inside I ask myself now
Can I thrive?
Gave up my heart but now I'm saved
By these reflections of my own crime
I killed the weak parts I possessed
But can I protect them this time
Is anybody
There?
Did you
Read me?