An Incident with a Ball Point Pen

lying here on the couch viewing the blankness
I'm trying to watch TV
but I don't know what I'm watching
It's so lonely here
me myself & I reside in the night
I want to sleep but it just won't come it won't come
I'm so tired of hurting and being alone
I keep thinking about the pills in the cabinet but I'm scared
My head hurts so much from crying
but if I take anything for it I'm scared
I won't stop and I would want to stop
want to stop
I don't have any choice in the matter
to make everything
I can't make it right by living
I'm so scared I want out but oh I don't know
I'm so cold
please do something
I can't stand this
empty feeling that I'm having
my head is horrible
stop the pounding hurts so much
stop
I have no control over
anything in my life. I'm breaking into pieces. Somebody do something