Where Blue Light Blooms

Just waiting for the cue to go outside
So I can lock up every single door and
Hide behind these firewalls
I've built them up to be so tall
And I forget what day it is and I don't miss remembering
'Cause I'm addicted to this room where blue light blooms
To teach me the rules and tell me what to do
It feels like I've been underground for this whole year
Just waiting for the sun to reappear
But now I see the distant glow
I think I'm feeling higher on a place that's low
I waited for the perfect time not to try
I watched the opportunity look me in the eyes
It took the end of days just to realize
My safe haven is oh so close to hell
Buried under my bed sheets
Steeping in the wet concrete
Setting in around me I turn to stone
Half alive and half asleep
Trapped inside the past two weeks
Staring at the photons that teach me the rules
And tell me what to do
It feels like I've been underground for this whole year
Just waiting for the sun to reappear
But now I see the distant glow
I think I'm feeling higher on a place that's low
I waited for the perfect time not to try
I watched the opportunity look me in the eyes
It took the end of days just to realize
My safe haven is oh so close to hell