From NY With Love

Had a conversation with my daddy
told me if I ever let a woman break me Id be mad
Crazy how I'm taking an advice
from the same guy I resented most my life
Told me if it doesn't kill me I should use my hurt
Learning everyday how to use my words
We ain't too different I respect he ain't a angel now
Come to realise he my dad but he a human first
In a way I should've gave you the same respect
Now when we speak it all small talk and lazy text
Ain't the type to do too much I ain't a crazy ex
I mean it's weird we just used to have this crazy
Ay look I'm sidetracking, I don't know how long I got you here for
Last time I saw you I was cutting for the airport
Know we say goodbye but I ain't know it was goodbye
You always told that you wish that I would care more
Kinda think I did we just grew from different lives,
grew up with different guys,
lil kids with kitchen knives
Never came natural
I learnt to give a try
but little things I caught back then ain't sitting right but
Fuck a blame game
I finished playing games
Somebody said you felt a way but I ain't saying names
I know you like to hit the sources tryna take aim
Real nigga, way before I crash you know I change lanes

Cry, run out of feelings
You can bring this liquor and the smoke
it goes straight to my mind
And I don't feel the same
It makes me numb but it don't kill the pain
Baby I'm a player that is true
I couldn't change my ways for you
I guess I need something new and if I keep it real
We both know the deal
I'm in need of love
I need something I can feel
And I know you wanna try
No perfect time for bye
I'm in need of love
I need something I can feel
Something I can feel

I ain't ever think that love was meant for me
Made no sense to you but it made sense to me
Cause you believe in star signs alignments
But going by your logic there's a thousand women sent for me
Was too young to ever bienvenue
Was on the streets saying I'll hit you back eventually
You wanted more we had a bond, that's where it ends for me
Cause I can say the same for every woman texting me
T weren't a problem I can't tell her much
Keelah was a vibe but she was Hella nuts
Could a had a kid with s but I had better luck
You know the picture perfect love was really never us
I've been a villain and a victim cause I won't lie
I got scars in awkward places that I won't hide
We went to war and that's some casualties on both sides
Just some lessons, had to learn them in my own time

Cry, run out of feelings
You can bring this liquor and the smoke
It goes straight to my mind
And I don't feel the same
It makes me numb but it don't kill the pain
Baby I'm a player that is true
I couldn't change my ways for you
I guess I need something new and if I keep it real
We both know the deal
I'm in need of love
I need something I can feel
And I know you wanna try
No perfect time for bye
I'm in need of love
I need something I can feel
Something I can feel