I Can't Decide Why I'm Alive

I can't decide why I'm alive
And I won't try
Cause I don't mind
Same shit, new day
I'm running to the bag yeah I'm running to the pay
I been thinking 'bout the past, if it's something to the pain
Yeah I been through the dark but I'm A-Okay
Just
Lost in the system, man on mission
Looking at my wrists no slits inflicted
Sometimes I wish that I could get distant
From all the pain, I thank God that I'm gifted
Bitch yeah
So step back mother fucker,
I been really with the shit, know that mother fucker
I'm a boss in this bitch, cross on my wrist
I was lost in the mist, no track mother fucker
I could taste it, stepping out this matrix
Vacation to the safe haven
Play making, play till I make it
Riding with God, I won't stop no way bitch
I can't decide why I'm alive
And I won't try
Cause I don't mind
I can't decide why I'm alive
And I won't try
Cause I don't mind