Minutes

I always get stuck counting the minutes
I drown when I'm swimming
Is any of it real?
Cause Inside my eyelids I'm spinning
Thank god I'm still in it
But I don't know how
Cause the view from the back of my closet
Is something I'm tired of watching
But nobody's here
cnd that's half the problem
I'm just alone with my fears
When life's amazing
I tend to forget
cll of the darkness
I hold in my head
It's only
When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me
Taught my skin how to grow thicker
Never a quitter
But I almost broke
Pills from a doctor for dinner
I mixed it with liquor
cnd I nearly choked
Cause the view as I started at the carpet
Was something I've never forgotten
With nobody there
cm my my own problem?
Wasting away with my fears
When life's amazing
I tend to forget
cll of the darkness
I hold in my head
It's only
When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me
Dying to live
But live half alive
How'd I get here?
How'd I get here?
Oh I'm holding my breath
In hope I survive
How'd I get here?
How'd I get here?
Now I'm stuck counting the minutes
I drown when I'm swimming
Is any of it real?
cll of the darkness
I hold in my head
It's only
When I get a little bit lonely
I feel like I don't even know me