Nerves

I try to make myself
Look happy on the surface
But on the inside
So nervous and so wordless

Trying to love reality
Trying to love this tranquility
As I feel I'm going forward
As I get to another corner

"Never give up" is an empty phrase
And my thoughts stay in this haze
And I hope these feelings are a phase

Where do I go? Where do I stand?
I just can't seem to understand
I'm so bored of trying to expand
I'm sitting here with an empty hand

But I guess these nerves are a part of me
Maybe that's why I don't feel free
Tied to this anxiety
Pulled down by gravity

And these nerves have got the best of me
This future's something I guarantee
It's something I need to resolve
If I want to evolve

Acting like everything's okay
Putting on this positive display
In front of everyone I know
But when I'm alone the feelings overflow

Why do I feel this way?
By myself I started to decay
Maybe I just wanted you to stay
And I wanted you to say

It's alright not to be feeling fine
You can't feel that way all the time
What's important is that when you feel good
You can pause and feel more secure

And maybe when you feel assured
You can be in the moment and you won't feel unsure
Notice these feelings you're trying to endure
Maybe it's the future you're fighting for

I guess these nerves are a part of me
Maybe that's why I don't feel free
Tied to this anxiety
And pulled down by gravity

And these nerves don't have all of me
'Cause there's someone that I'm trying to be
These nerves don't have all of me
'Cause there's someone I'm trying to be
Trying to be