In Vein

In vein
Injected
all cunning schemes divised
now terminate in liquid
a fragile peace collapsing
in self-disdain
infected
with thoughts the mind detests
purpose without reason
sanity's come to an end
a lesser self arising
aspiration changed to flawed intention
become addicted to a lethal attraction
cannot live on with a life in dissection
left my life all stained to seek detention
no reason, no affection
shatter glass to escape the reflection
and the walls closing in on me

my innermost turned inside out
all i ever was
became in vein
hallucinations be my guide
to the world beyond
excess and lunacy divide
the last threats to
life