How to Die

I'm trembling in the mourning
Gambling with all the warnings
Drugs threatening to floor me
Deadly disguised as a party

Gonna die
And yet it make me feel alive
I keep this up, I'm gonna die
So why it make me feel alive?

Can't stop once I start
My own thoughts tear me apart

And I could lie
But I really wanna die
Don't think I'm supposed to be alive
Girl, you make me wanna cry
Yeah, stomach pains
I don't ever dream, shit, I hardly sleep
Hate the way I love it when I bleed I'm a sick fuck
Talking 'bout a fuck, I couldn't give one
Talking slurred cause all these fucking drugs up in my system

Gonna die
And yet it make me feel alive
I keep this up, I'm gonna die
So why it make me feel alive?

Can't stop once I start
My own thoughts tear me apart

I keep this up, I'm gonna die
And yet it make me feel alive
I keep this up, I'm gonna die
So why it make me feel alive?

Can't stop once I start
My own thoughts tear me apart