Desensitized

Pulling myself again, away from confrontation
I can't feel anything here in this place away from all my troubles

I want to be free but don't want to face me
In my head, it's just a disguise, a cause for these veiled eyes

Sometime I feel so lost, so disconnected
What I wouldn't do to feel alive: to feel alive again

Where do I draw the line between vice and vindication, between another plane of thought and desensitized?

Sometimes I light this flame, on my own, incinerating the progression prolonged

Forgive me
I've turned my back too many times on the world I built around me, just to watch it fall

I've watched it fall!

I want to be free but don't want to face me
In my head, it's just a disguise, a cause for these veiled eyes

Sometimes I light this flame, on my own, incinerating the progression prolonged
Searching for a way to extinguish the pain
I need to escape