Death of a Clown

The desired effect
Of losing everything
Is the trick of the light
Telling me you're there
Secrets in the dark
Of everything you've done
Have been my shadows to this day
Since you slipped away
I wasn't just some fragile kid relying on you for a thrill
I'll always miss the feeling
Of my lip between your teeth
I've changed so much since that day
Though it haunts me through the tears
It hurts to be in love
With someone dead for all these years

You're no hero falling to the ground
I'm falling to my knees
At the thought of you being taken away
Who knew you'd never come back?
Sirens and flashing lights all around
Paint my nightmares
Over the memory of that day
And how you faded away

Waiting for time to heal
The memory of you
The bitterness I hold
Over what you said you'd do
Planned for tomorrow
And your great escape
I watched the trail turn cold
And you disintegrate
You fell through the cracks
When you tried to gasp for air
The phone call that I got that day
Was too much for a child to bare
Now I haven't slept in days
I'm scared to hear it in my dreams
I fear my own thoughts
Since I heard him dying on the streets

You're no hero falling to the ground
I'm falling to my knees
At the thought of you being taken away
Who knew you'd never come back?
Sirens and flashing lights all around
Paint my nightmares
Over the memory of that day
And how you faded away

A black star
Is what you are
Maybe one day I'll meet you on the other side
A black star
Is what you are
Maybe one day I'll meet you on the other side
A black star
Is what you are
Maybe one day I'll meet you on the other side

You're no hero falling to the ground
I'm falling to my knees
At the thought of you being taken away
Who knew you'd never come back?
Sirens and flashing lights all around
Paint my nightmares
Over the memory of that day
And how you faded away