KILLING ME

I've seen a different side of me
I took for granted all the times I felt alive
Being that most of my days now, it's as if I'm dead inside
I wanna hide, but there's nowhere left to run
A type of fear that I cannot overcome

Everyday I save myself, but what if
One day I wake up and find
I have nothing left?
I try to cope
It's all in hopes that one day I'll be just fine
But the truth is, there's something
So fucked up inside my mind

Some days it's worse than others
Sometimes I almost feel okay
But most days are terrifying
I feel as if I'm dying
Panic is getting the best of me
I can't see through my... I can't breathe
Oh God, I loathe this feeling
With a blank stare at the ceiling
Oh God, I loathe this feeling

My anxiety is fucking killing me
It permeates every bone
I hate myself
I feel so alone
I try so hard to fix my problems
But I don't know if I'll ever solve them

My anxiety is killing me
Oh God, I loathe this feeling