Not a Pessimist

I hate the way my mind makes me think
Nothing good is working out for me
I've been blinded by the evil side
I just wanna see the good in life

I feel like my oh my, my mind is heavy
Making me believe
That everything that's bad is coming
Right to me
Right to me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lose it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do but I try my best
I'm not a pessimist

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I hate the way I'm never satisfied
I'm only happy for a little time
Then I think of everything I don't have yet
And it makes me cry
Yeah it makes me like
I wonder what I gotta do
To feel joy for longer than two seconds
I always think it's fleeting
Thinking negatively for no reason
Good times are only here for a season
When did I start to believe these things
Taking over my mind
Everything seems not alright
I'm not okay
I don't mean to be this way
Putting myself through pain
Trying so hard to be a positive person
My mind says no way
I've read all those books, seen all those speeches bout the power of the brain
I think they're pretty accurate cause mine has power over me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lose it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do but I try my best
I'm not a pessimist

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Nobody gets it, they think I'm being dramatic
I'm not a negative person, it's a really bad habit
Yeah there's more to me than you see
I really wanna think differently

I feel like my oh my, my mind is heavy
Making me believe
That everything that's bad is coming
Right to me
Right to me

I'm not a pessimist
I don't mean to lose it
I'm confused why I think like this
I'm not a pessimist
I can't leave my room
It's hard to do but I try my best
I'm not a pessimist

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I'm not a pessimist
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