Cornflakes & Cigarettes

I woke up and it was raining, found the clothes I'd worn last night
I got up and started my routine, cornflakes and cigarettes,
where did I leave my light?
The front door slammed I started
walking, pull my hands into my sleeves
Then the call came through and hit me
Only wish that he'd died in his sleep
As I lay on the footpath crying, passers-by offered me their hands
I said I'm fine but thanks for asking,
if there's a god why was this his plan?

We stood there in complete silence
As they lowered you into the ground
Could've heard a single pin drop
From 50 miles around

I woke up it was still raining, must've been past 2pm
The days had all just blurred together, another sleepless night again
Mum said she still thinks about him and how much she sees of him in me
I know I fuck up but I'm trying, to be half the man he'd want me to be
Time never makes things easier, it makes you miss what you once had
You said that you had lost a good friend, but that day I lost my Dad

We stood there in complete silence
But that was never your way
I never thought I'd be here crying
On your fucking funeral day

Sometimes all I wants' an answer, but I wanna hear it from his mouth
Did I ever make you proud of me? Are there things you're mad about?
Found a box full of your old clothes, now I wear them around the house
I've met you in my dreams before, but I don't think that it counts
Sam doesn't talk about him, not because he doesn't care
We both drink to keep the pain away, cause we've never had it fair

I'm standing here in complete silence, wiping tears off of your grave
I know I never got to meet you
But I'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same
No I'll never be the same see less