Die for This

It's hard to comprehend it
When your art's your longest friendship
And your hearts beyond demented
But you haven't got the spark to want to mend it
So I grasp upon this pen
And my darkest wrongs are vented
Some days I'm ashamed of the path I'm on
But I guess you gotta start a song to end it
And it seems so tough
Why's everything gotta be so fucked?
I'm sorry about my emo stuff
But my dreams won't budge till I clean those cuts
So I jump on a beat and these peeps show love
Yeah brother the scene goes nuts
Rеlease my first mixtape at seventeen
Just imaginе when Complete grows up
But I still haven't
And I want to be more but I'm not really sure if it will happen
Still nappin with the pill pattern
Cause I'd kill for a pilsener while I'm gettin chills in a field cabin
I just wanna kill rappin in an ill fashio
But it feels like my skills lackin and this bill's stackin
Cause I spend so much on these drunken thrills
I would flunk a mill on some spilled Kraken
As I sit in disgust, rags to riches riches to rust
I admit I'm a risk when resisting a rush
It's like I don't wanna miss but I must!
Pissed as a skunk, staring at the motel mirror as I whisper enough
Missin my ex, yeah we had sex but I guess I didn't kiss her enough
Ditchin her hugs just to cradle a case
Maybe I've made me some fatal mistakes
Trading a stable embrace for a fable
Changing my seat for a table of plates
And the room is empty, the spoons are bent, balloons are plenty
The booze extends, the schooners tempt me
I lose my freinds, a few resent me, few to envy!
So I'm home alone, Next minute and I'm roaming alone in Rome
Corona grown aromas and chrome Patrone
Chromosomes that flow from my open dome
So after the shows are shown
And that Jetstar flight gelts slowly flown
I'd rehearse the suggestions but how can I work on reflection
I don't even know my own!
Fuck!
Still see doctors more than my mates
Still detoxing thought it was safe
Still restocking order a case
Still need options or I'm a (break!!)
Still need watching more than my weight
Still sleep lots and forfeit the day
Still bein hostage for an escape
Still keep boxing thoughts that hate
And I'm against the ropes, still hope for a sense of hope
So I pen these notes theres no sense in choking!
Even when I'm tempted to go and surrender most!
I'm a saw through this war and defend my post
Till my trench and cement explodes!
And all foes that descend below
Look up and pretend that my end is close!
Till I got no oxygen left won't stop for a sec till I drop to my death
Still rockin these sets like rocky on meth
Probably best that you don't mock me with threats
Cause it's gonna get costly
Costly as debts for a rock fiend dog keep watching me flex!
Watching these pests wanna off me cause they're not me
Promptly wouldn't top my success hell nah!
Watch ya speakin bout bruv?
I'm still gonna blow all these speakers out bruv
Even when my teams outnumbered
Our hungers humungous you wouldn't wanna a scene without us
And I still will succeed without luck
You can hate you can even doubt but
It ain't over till the fat lady sings
So tell your fucking mum to keep her mouth shut!
Heh, Complete

(Pretty sure I would die for this)
(Pretty sure I would die for this)
(Pretty sure I would die for this)
(Pretty sure I would die for this)