Body Works

Body works like this
In dire need of validation
Everything will revolve around that then
Every little talk every word that comes outta my mouth is desperate
And hungry for a love
And hunger works like this
Been starved for true affection
So I cling on to whoever treats me nice
I yearn for hugs and compliments I yearn for hugs and pats on my head
Like I'm just a helpless little child

And I'm tired of feeling so small or feeling none at all
Or wanting to be seen when someones looking straight at me its like
When am I satisfied?
Will I ever know if I am?
Am I just wasting peoples time?

'Cause what I really want to be
Is a person who is fine without anyone else
Not a person isolated but someone who likes themselves
Enough to function on their own someone who doesn't freak out
If somebody's looked at them wrong
And wrong is meaning this
Cold or maybe distant maybe I'm just paranoid
But I always feel annoying or maybe I am just annoyed
I just want to be connected want to be completely fine
Tired of feeling so conflicted about everything cause I am

Tired of feelings so big and feeling like shit
And wanting to give up on life every two seconds
I wish I didn't know why I'm so upset all the time
'Cause the knowing makes it harder cause I always have to compromise

Tired of speaking in tongues or never speaking up
And praying everyone thinks I am somewhat good enough
I want to be my own but I'm at everybody's feet
Bowing to the ground and crying begging that they love me

'Cause there is always

A little bit of fear
Of everyone I know
They have this scary power
To leave me if they wanted
I thrive when by myself but I'm scared of my head
I'm scared of my thoughts I'm scared of feeling dead
A little bit of fear
Of everyone I know
They have this scary power
To leave me in a moment I like it by myself but I also need my friends
I need to feel connected I need to leave my bed I guess