Thanku

I'm gross
I told you so you know
Please don't go
Getting up your hopes

'Cause I'm used to disappointing
It's what I'm best at you know
That's my hidden talent
And I will always feel alone
'Cause no matter what I do I will sink and cannot swim
Nothing can hold me up when there is heaviness within

I will treasure what you said forever forever
But I might not be alive soon 'cause it never gets better
I will hold your hand one day if you'll allow will you allow it?
'Cause I want to feel the warmth of someone
Who actually cares about me
I will hand you my last letter I will tell you what it said
I will come back in the afterlife when I am good as dead
And I will crawl onto your back even though I may be heavy
I will sleep there for eternity
'Cause that is where I will feel safest

And I may have fucked up your life already
So it doesn't matter if I'm heavy weight
If I don't live up to our promise
I deserve to have you hate me

I would kill myself over and over again if that happened
Haunt myself for taking everything I had for granted
But life is life right?
It is nothing more than waiting for a bomb
You live or you give up and die I learned that from my mom

So I will treasure you forever and ever
'Cause there's lots of shitty things you took and actually made better
I will hold your hand one day if you'll allow will you allow it?
'Cause I want to feel the warmth of someone
Who actually cares about me
I can promise you I'm less than
And you can tell me I don't listen
And I can tell you I think I'm shit but still my eyes will glisten
When you tell me things or make me feel like I'm almost kinda worth it
I wanna thank you for being my friend
So thank you