My Demise

I am
everything I hate, I became
a person that I never meant to be
I push my mind into insanity
welcome to my demise
welcome to my demise
I’m tired of living my life too fast
tired of dwelling on mistakes, am I able to outlast?
can’t make it through, I’m stuck in a loop
of an endless cycle, my life has been untrue
I am so damn helpless
feeling just so meaningless
why is everything overwhelming
my soul inside is slowly melting
my demise
diving deeper into the hole I dug myself
my demise
although my heart is dark I am still compelled
feeling every single breath I take and I…
push myself to the edge, i know that I’m
holding on
to the things that are tearing me apart
so intoxicated I can't resist, can I…
make it through the darkened days ahead that I’m
holding on
way too strong
Is this the beginning of my demise?
welcome to my demise
I will burn
that is on my mind
for a million fucking times I’m believing in this lie
decidophobia kicking down my door
with a trail of destruction from my life before
my demise
diving deeper into the hole I dug myself
my demise
although my heart is dark I am still compelled
feeling every single breath I take and I…
push myself to the edge, i know that I’m
holding on
to the things that are tearing me apart
so intoxicated I can't resist, can I…
make it through the darkened days ahead that I’m
holding on
way too strong
Is this the beginning of my demise?
I don't wanna be remembered
how I was living all my life yeah
I am falling off the edge and
Now I need to be someone else
don’t wanna be known for
something that I never wanted
to be
and after my demise
I wanna be someone