Trash Distorted MIND

[00:00.03] Fuck
[00:03.02] Oh god just protect me from fucking silence
[00:10.47] I fucking hate it here
[00:12.22] I fucking hate it here
[00:13.73] Silence
[00:17.05] Who said that I'm screaming?
[00:18.33] I'm just thinking very loud
[00:23.19] Fuck
[00:27.39] I am too afraid to say
[00:29.59] Anything
[00:30.46] I've ruined everything behind
[00:32.57] It takes too long
[00:33.33] I need to think faster
[00:34.94] Let me think
[00:35.74] Let me think what you think
[00:36.82] It's too much pressure
[00:37.87] Gotta hurry, gotta hurry
[00:38.78] Gotta hurry, gotta hurry
[00:39.70] I'm out of time
[00:42.04] Can't hear my thoughts
[00:45.50] Can't hear my voice
[00:48.87] Why I always have to be different than others?
[00:53.16] Argh!
[00:54.87] Why must I be so fucking individual?
[00:58.27] It hurts
[00:59.13] It hurts
[00:59.90] It hurts
[01:02.63] Everywhere I go
[01:03.80] I don't fit
[01:04.83] I quit
[01:06.53] Nowhere to go I belong to no one
[01:08.55] Can't have a sit for a sec
[01:10.64] Silence begets violence
[01:11.91] Can't stand still for a sec
[01:13.96] Silence begets violence
[01:15.48] Can't ever find my fucking place
[01:17.57] Silence begets violence
[01:19.00] I feel deaf it might be fucking death
[01:23.57] Silence begets violence
[01:24.15] Violence
[01:35.98] Fuck
[01:37.64] Every year I thought it would be different this time
[01:39.22] Every time I fail my suicide is the biggest regret
[01:40.92] I nearly got it and I fucked up I'm still here
[01:42.48] Years passed by nothing fucking changed
[01:44.67] I'm not stronger, I'm in deeper shit
[01:46.24] It's like my full bucket is already spilling
[01:47.96] Hoping that I'm alive or hoping that I'm dead
[01:51.55] Can't decide what is more destructive
[01:52.54] Searching for myself It's been really hard to find my identity
[01:54.40] What am I
[01:54.86] Who am I
[01:55.31] Maybe you know better
[01:56.07] Or its just a mask that I cover my thoughts
[01:58.53] Every night I come here
[01:59.18] Leaving my dungeon safe
[01:59.81] Am I playing a role
[02:00.54] Or is that really who I am
[02:01.32] Sober since the pandemic
[02:02.11] Still digging for myself
[02:02.96] I might be real but I don't know which side am I
[02:05.36] Put these foolish ambitions to rest
[02:06.75] It wont make you happy
[02:07.81] Don't go that way
[02:08.68] It's like being Sisyphus
[02:10.32] Argh! Can't ever get enough
[02:12.20] Raise him to be an ordinary man
[02:14.13] With an ordinary work
[02:15.82] Just live your simple life
[02:17.57] Why are you hating people that live for nothing?
[02:20.19] At least they are happy
[02:21.80] Are you fucking happy?
[02:23.41] No?
[02:25.82] I don't even know if I love myself
[02:27.42] I don't even know if I accept myself
[02:29.10] God I'm so fucking lost
[02:30.89] Help me
[02:34.26] I lost my identity
[02:38.56] It says that I'm fifty fifty
[02:42.95] I am myself but the fuck am I?
[02:46.21] Violence
[02:51.77] Ok, silence
[02:53.11] Violence
[02:58.22] Shhh, silence
[02:59.94] Violence
[03:05.14] Ok, quiet, quiet, quiet, quiet
[03:06.91] Violence
[03:11.85] God
[03:15.48] I don't know what I'm screaming about anymore
[03:22.33] I lost my identity
[03:24.26] I lost my identity
[03:25.65] It's fine, I'm fine, everything is fucking fine
[03:29.19] The fuck I just wrote I can't understand it
[03:32.62] Man, fuck these lyrics
[03:33.86] I'm fucking broke and lost
[03:38.07] Fuck
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