Please Explain

[00:00.19] Aunty Rana, I miss you
[00:01.49] It's been 10 years ever since you
[00:03.19] I hate them words, I don't wanna continue
[00:04.86] I'm sorry that I haven't come to see you
[00:06.56] Wish you were here cause since that day
[00:08.23] Things got worse and nothing has changed
[00:10.04] Mya and millie all grown up now
[00:11.84] I see you upset when I look at their face
[00:13.52] No one cares about what's going on
[00:15.07] If you can hear me I hate this song
[00:16.28] Some nights I can't even sleep cause
[00:18.40] Your daughters are crying for help and your gone
[00:20.14] I know how their feeling
[00:21.70] I can't believe I'm still waiting for my father to come back
[00:24.87] And I'm crying cause I shouldn't tell you
[00:26.56] The girls don't live with their dad
[00:28.27] And it's sad
[00:29.27] Cause Amelia she doesn't even speak no more
[00:31.43] It's not her fault she lost her mum
[00:33.20] But whys she gotta lose one more
[00:35.04] Everyone keeps asking me why is always angry for like
[00:38.00] After all of these years
[00:39.13] Nostop pain, non stop tears
[00:40.53] She feels like there's nothing lose
[00:42.04] Please try to put yourself in their shoes
[00:43.74] I'm really trying to understand
[00:45.01] What was the plan
[00:45.96] When the only person that
[00:46.88] Gave them the world is under this tomb
[00:49.06] I don't know what to do
[00:50.29] Your sister is sick the pain in her heart
[00:52.47] From all of the shit my dad putting her through
[00:54.45] I just wanna take my life away
[00:56.08] I just wanna see my aunties face
[00:57.64] If I had a choice to make to replace you
[00:59.42] And put me in the grave I'm sick of this place
[01:01.82] And the only reason why I'm still doing music
[01:03.78] Is maybe one day my fathers watching me on TV
[01:06.17] And he'll recognise my face
[01:07.64] I got so much pain
[01:09.56] Even though your back in my life now
[01:11.15] It won't be the same
[01:12.94] I know I've been praying for this day
[01:14.41] And I'll take the blame
[01:16.07] But how can I trust you ever again
[01:17.61] If you can't explain, please explain
[01:20.87] I feel like I'm living in hell
[01:22.23] That's why I'm always screaming for help
[01:23.88] I don't want to hear you say that you love me
[01:25.41] How can you love me
[01:26.34] When I don't even love myself
[01:27.82] Can someone please explain
[01:30.51] Cause I'm just trying to find my way
[01:34.76] I got so much pain
[01:36.56] Even though your back in my life now
[01:38.15] It won't be the same
[01:39.91] I know I've been praying for this day
[01:41.57] And I'll take the blame
[01:43.22] But how can I trust you ever again
[01:45.19] If you can't explain, please explain
[01:48.53] Dear Dad
[01:50.12] I just turned 23
[01:51.17] And I can't believe that your not here
[01:52.89] Cause mum told me you were overseas
[01:54.50] And that one day you'll be back
[01:56.91] Why was she crying when she told me that
[01:58.82] Sebz out in the streets
[02:00.12] And I'm still asking where you're at
[02:01.70] Now I'm wiping the tears
[02:02.79] Off of my mums face
[02:03.76] But I'm falling in the rain
[02:04.96] I don't even know
[02:05.94] Who I'm writing anymore
[02:06.91] Cause I'm drowning in the pain
[02:08.57] This is my my last letter
[02:09.72] We could've been so close
[02:10.92] But you pushed me away
[02:12.24] And I don't want sit here
[02:13.14] Writing an essay no more
[02:14.01] Can you please explain
[02:15.35] Cause I'm so tired of these introductions
[02:18.78] I want know your side of the story
[02:20.63] I'm not making assumptions
[02:22.06] But why did you leave me
[02:23.35] I'm old enough to have that discussion
[02:25.20] I know I've made mistakes
[02:26.63] But my life didn't come with instructions
[02:28.46] So look at me now
[02:29.67] I worked hard
[02:30.55] Put my head down
[02:31.36] Had to level up
[02:32.10] Cause your a let down
[02:32.98] Had to show up
[02:33.73] Make my mum proud
[02:34.60] Be a better man
[02:35.47] Cause your not around
[02:36.25] And I thank God
[02:37.12] This who I am now
[02:38.00] I remember when I saved 2k
[02:40.15] Shot my first video
[02:41.01] And look what Ive made now
[02:42.27] But I still love you
[02:43.91] Nah nah nah
[02:45.46] Man I fkn hate you
[02:46.78] After everything that you put us through
[02:48.29] Was it worth it
[02:49.37] Tell me was it fkn worth it
[02:50.80] I'm hurt that we never spoke
[02:52.23] Before I took that turn
[02:53.41] But now it's too late
[02:54.31] Fuck this letter
[02:55.28] Just burn it
[02:55.90] I got so much pain
[02:57.55] Even though your back in my life now
[02:59.15] It won't be the same
[03:00.95] I know I've been praying for this day
[03:02.55] And I'll take the blame
[03:04.28] But how can I trust you ever again
[03:05.82] If you can't explain, please explain
[03:09.42] Sebz, yeah
[03:10.43] I know I'm not here anymore
[03:11.58] But you got to keep your head up
[03:12.93] I can't do it on my own lil bro
[03:14.80] It was me and you from the start
[03:16.12] But now that your gone
[03:17.13] I swear on your grave
[03:17.88] I'ma always carry on the brothers name
[03:19.67] Ignite that flame
[03:20.45] And burn them gronks that always got something negative to say
[03:23.09] Cause they don't want to see us up
[03:24.43] They just want to see us fall
[03:26.37] They hate it every time we win
[03:27.66] Thats why its always fuck em all
[03:29.45] I don't want to do this on my own izzy I don't
[03:31.43] I hate that I can't even pick up the phone
[03:33.25] And mum just sits at the front of the house
[03:34.84] Its like she's waiting for you to come home
[03:36.50] Why are you making her wait
[03:38.26] I know that I made a mistake
[03:39.67] You weren't just my brother
[03:40.91] You were my best friend
[03:42.08] And now it's too late
[03:42.95] Just please bro tell mum to go inside
[03:44.91] Cause I'm not coming home tonight
[03:46.53] I can feel her pain when she cry's
[03:48.11] Wipe all her tears off her eyes
[03:50.07] And I'll never forget the letter dad wrote us
[03:52.29] First word I read was son
[03:53.89] If your reading this I'm so sorry boys
[03:55.49] But I had to do what I've done
[03:56.72] I pray one day that god
[03:57.93] Will bring us back together
[03:58.88] Me you your brothers and your mum
[04:00.35] But just for now son I got to leave
[04:01.74] Cause I really don't like the man I've become
[04:03.60] Wait Izzy I have to tell you something
[04:05.29] I know dad hurt you when he left
[04:06.72] But guess what he came back
[04:08.48] And he wants to explain that's what he said
[04:10.35] Look Sebz don't be upset
[04:11.52] I have no regrets
[04:12.41] You will always be my brethren
[04:13.82] And if they ask what happened to Izzy
[04:15.29] I'll tell 'em he died a fkn legend
[04:17.17] I got so much pain
[04:18.75] Even though your back in my life now
[04:20.14] It won't be the same
[04:22.11] I know I've been praying for this day
[04:23.76] And I'll take the blame
[04:25.61] But how can I trust you ever again
[04:27.29] If you can't explain, please explain
[04:30.26] I feel like I'm living in hell
[04:31.48] That's why I'm always screaming for help
[04:33.14] I don't want to hear you say that you love me
[04:34.88] How can you love me
[04:35.72] When I don't even love myself
[04:37.15] Can someone please explain
[04:40.36] Cause I'm just trying to find my way
[04:43.51] I got so much pain
[04:45.75] Even though your back in my life now
[04:47.45] It won't be the same
[04:48.93] I know I've been praying for this day
[04:50.98] And I'll take the blame
[04:52.44] But how can I trust you ever again
[04:54.20] If you can't explain, please explain
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