for the friends i've lost

Big school in a big city
Nobody knew my name
I was 8 years old in a playground
When you told me to come and play with you

Hide and seek we hid together
Inside the nook under the slide
Mud was getting everywhere
Then you looked at me and smiled
You said you'd always be my best friend

Fast forward 8 years later
Now I'm bottling up my tears
And I hold your heart like a souvenir
As our friendship disappears

And the shiver of our past runs down my spine
Our heartstrings tied together like a twine
It's burning up, It's crumbling down
I lose myself when you're around
I'm quashed under the pressure
By the thing I thought would last forever

Big heart and a big ego
Everyone knew your name
About 2000 followers on instagram
You make me go insane

Fast forward to the future
I'll be bottling up my tears
And I'll hold your heart like a souvenir
Because our friendship disappeared

Maybe you're going through shit of your own
Maybe that turned your heart into stone
(And maybe you didn't mean to leave me alone)
But I don't need you, I'm here if you do
I wish you were the friend that I was to you

Fast forward to the future
We'll be lost in our careers
And you'll be a distant memory
Even after all those years

And the memories I have destroys my mind
Reminder of the times we left behind
The things we did, and we went through
Just know that i'll remember you
I'm quashed under the pressure
By the thing i thought would last forever