Jealous

My heart hurts every time
I see them laughing
I want to gouge out my eyes
So I can't see them happy

Jealousy eats me from the inside
No one beside
Misery has become my only friend
Soon is my end

I rot in my loneliness
I'm in the crowd but no one cares
I'm like a ghost
I'm invisible

Loneliness has fucked up my poor brain
Oh this pain
Everything has lost its meaning
I'm only dreaming
Of taking my life and someone with me