Anxiety

[00:07.15] Hoping that you don't think less of me now
[00:08.71] Ever since I decided to grow
[00:10.54] Look I know you could shine with the love of your life
[00:12.56] But my focus ain't there and it shows
[00:14.66] Don't think the drugs taking over
[00:15.65] It's water and prepping to sell out them shows
[00:17.91] Yeah those dreams are more real than you ever imagined
[00:20.06] I'm in a constant state of go
[00:22.01] So that means every second matters now
[00:23.20] I can't share if you don't believe
[00:24.17] And if that wavers any moment, it's better to let you leave
[00:25.99] I'm always locked into a battle that's losing ground with my mind
[00:27.78] And how to allocate my life when I've never had enough time
[00:30.02] Pull out in a big Benz
[00:31.02] Been the talk of the town, don't know where it began
[00:33.37] Everywhere I go, the world is my friend
[00:34.87] And they want to play house, but this isn't pretend
[00:37.24] Never been shook at the thought that one day
[00:38.77] I lay down for the night and I wake up on clouds
[00:40.71] I'm actually terrified thinking that day's coming up
[00:42.86] In that case it should happen right now
[00:44.68] I focus solely on things that are out my control
[00:46.67] But some days feel I'm here for the ride
[00:48.46] Convinced myself that it's only my cowardice
[00:50.24] Aiding in pushing that shit to the side
[00:52.05] Lately, I've tried to express how I feel
[00:53.60] To the people I trust and they say they relate
[00:55.69] But with our own motives in life
[00:56.94] What's the point if I know we arrive at meeting the same fate
[00:59.60] Finding myself closing off from the world
[01:01.03] When I feel that it's safer to keep it inside
[01:03.38] I'm coming closer to going insane
[01:04.92] When the shell starts to break and there's nothing to hide
[01:07.47] Losing it
[01:09.05] I think I'm really losing it
[01:10.56] In the mirror like who is this
[01:12.12] Want the voices to stop, will he hear my wish
[01:14.66] I'm screaming out, but I don't hear anything making a sound
[01:18.24] Want a way out, under the water with weight til I drown
[01:22.63] Losing it
[01:23.95] I think I'm really losing it
[01:25.70] In the mirror like who is this
[01:26.90] Want the voices to stop, will he hear my wish
[01:29.52] I'm screaming out, but I don't hear anything making a sound
[01:33.42] Want a way out, under the water with weight til I drown
[01:44.63] Hands to the temple and palms are too sweaty
[01:46.49] It feels like I'm still running laps
[01:48.29] Heart won't slow down, it's a struggle to breathe
[01:50.08] Any moment my lungs could collapse
[01:52.15] Closing my eyes
[01:52.61] Trying to focus on keeping that feather afloat when I gasp
[01:55.74] And what if it ends when I'm blind to it all
[01:57.54] Why can't I keep my mind on its task
[01:59.57] So I get up and I wander outside
[02:01.19] Trying to find someone near that could help
[02:02.88] Fuck the shell and the worry
[02:04.10] Cause now I'm too paranoid knowing I can't save myself
[02:06.79] Then I fall and as soon as my face meets the gravel
[02:08.76] I flinch and I'm back in my room
[02:10.55] I'm too shook to relax
[02:11.69] Knowing now what might happen if I were to fall in the gloom
[02:14.10] Losing it
[02:16.43] I think I'm really losing it
[02:18.00] In the mirror like who is this
[02:19.57] Want the voices to stop, will he hear my wish
[02:22.20] I'm screaming out, but I don't hear anything making a sound
[02:26.07] Want a way out, under the water with weight til I drown
[02:30.19] Losing it
[02:31.34] I think I'm really losing it
[02:33.21] In the mirror like who is this
[02:34.51] Want the voices to stop, will he hear my wish
[02:37.10] I'm screaming out, but I don't hear anything making a sound
[02:40.92] Want a way out, under the water with weight til I drown
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