Phantom Guilt

Resentment haunts like ghosts in church
Stained glass wrists bleeding on the pews
Trails of red follow me like shadows
Drenching innocent children and crippled widows

The pain that I bury
The guilt that I carry
These are the reasons why I stay away

An Anointing of the sick and dying

The guilt of not being at your side
The guilt of not seeing you rest

I'm sorry for the hell I put you through
But you weren't innocent
I didn't know how bad it got or the things I put you through

God knows I'm paying for it now
God knows I'm paying for it now
God knows I'm paying for it now
God knows I'm paying for it now

Maybe one day I will forgive myself