I Think I'm Doing Better Alone Again

You left me in silence and slowly bit by bit
You tore me apart at the seams until only scraps were left
I'm ripping my lungs to pieces until no noise is coming out
I'm running out of options, out of sanity i know

God why can't we just try a little longer
Love a little harder, make this distance feel a little smaller
But maybe that's just asking for too much, besides

I think I'm doing better alone again
But who the fuck am I to say
I lie to myself in the mirror
With half-assed affirmations every day

Leave me outside in the sun
Dripping slowly until I thaw
Ring me out until I am nothing
But a shell of a body lacking emotion

Building up castles just to knock them down in the same day
I rarely tell the truth when I say that I'm okay
Not that it matters, I don't think that you would care
You'd pull up the drawbridge, raise your sword into the air

Drench me in your sweet lies
Grit your teeth, tell me we're fine
Besides, I'll probably believe it

I think I'm doing better alone again
But who the fuck am I to say
I lie to myself in the mirror
With half-assed affirmations every day

Gratitude journals with nothing but
Sappy quotes that I found on the web
Doing everything in my power to feel like
I'm more than just a blip in time

Tell me that you think I'm pretty, hold my hand
I'll still be alone for this last dance
We'll just drown in a pool of your dishonesty
Share a bowl to swallow it easily

I know I'm doing better alone again
But who the fuck am I to say
I lie to myself in the mirror
With half-assed affirmations every day