The Kid I Used To Be

At seventeen years old I was a run away, run away
No stranger to the struggle each and every day, every day
Fourteen years old with a noose on my mind, on my mind
I want to die, kill the leaches inside

Exiled, exiled no time for denial
Pushed around, around made out to be a freak
What the hell is wrong with me
Shoved away, alone inside, left to fend for my life
Suicide, depression weighing down my mind
Never thought the kid I was would grow into this man today

I've changed a lot of ways but I'm still the same
Lying on the floor ingesting all this pain
Never once before I thought I'd be this way
Searching for a better way to live my days

Nineteen years old I was working 50 hour weeks
Chasing dreams running from my demons shaking in my sheets
Sixteen years old, stuck in mental heath, why do I do this to myself
Fuck yourself, Kill yourself, these thoughts
Drag me through the mud
Twenty one, living next to the barrel of a gun

Loosing grip, make it stop, all I want is to drop
Who the fuck is the man in the mirror
Times have changed, so have I
Never thought I would Survive
I know right where the fuck I came from

I've changed a lot of ways but I'm still the same
Lying on the floor ingesting all this pain
Never once before I thought I'd be this way
Person that I am is on a different page

Nineteen years old, lost a part of my soul
My soul
But I won't, won't let my soul turn cold
Do it
At times my heart feel like an abyss

Fuck

I feel like I've changed, but I'm still the same
I feel like I've changed, but I'm still the same
Kid I used to Be

Thanks for listening, see you next time
Goodbye