Hurt so Bad

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become my sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all my empire of dirt
I will let you down i will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts i cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear you are someone else
I am still right here
If I could start again a million miles away
I would keep myself i would find a way