flowers bloom inside my head (feat. Astrophysics)

Am I a spectre
Can my body rearrange as I please
Stay with my lovers as my body fades away so to speak
Is it pathetic to keep wishing someone could save me
Grasping for the surface while I'm drowning always lost at sea

Just wait in waste every day
While I break
Nothing's right anyway

If only I could dissipate from everyone that only sees me as an object
Reinforcement of the roles I won't be
Though there's the vividness of nightmares that I can't escape
Real ones always follow me in waking, forming, taking shape
This awful feeling I've gone missing never goes away
The instant replay of my memories come out to prey on me
Water the soil of my inspiration
Help me stay grounded so the flowers bloom inside my head and don't decay

There's something I can't shake
There's something I can never shake
There's something I can't shake
There's something I can't
Just wait
Just wait

Just wait in waste every day
While I break
Nothing's right anyway
While blood starts to thin
Will I bleed out to the wind
Split in half as twins
Sewing up their skin for their sins