Cloudy Cocktail

It's unbearable that I always feel low
Why do I feel so alone
I wish that you would stop telling me
That I should be happy
When I don't understand
What exactly that means

Don't you try to blame me for all these insecurities
That's just so unsettling
Don't you try to blame me
You always try to blame me for the way you left me
Babe, that's just unsettling
Take responsibility for your actions

I know it's late, but I need you to know
I'm not okay and you're beautiful
There's no escaping
This complex you gave to me

And everyone knows you always get your way
I need you out of my headspace

Don't you try to blame me for these insecurities
That's just so unsettling
Don't you try to blame me
You always try to blame me for the way you left me
Babe, that's just unsettling
Take responsibility for your actions

I know it's late, but I need you to know
I'm not okay and you're beautiful
There's no escaping
This complex you gave to me

And I'm about to break
Taking pulls to curb the shakes
Three white pills to get to sleep
A blue to stay awake
And I can't seem to take
This complex that you gave me
Another smile faked
As a pull another drink

And I've been feeling weak
But this is what I needed
As I take another drink
I feel so defeated
And you don't know
How low I can go
I just want to drown
So I'll pull another drink

You're beautiful

Why can't you see
That we can't all be
Liars and saints
These scars that you left us
Why can't you see
That we can't all be
Liars and saints
These scars that you left us
These scars won't fade
We'll take them to our graves

And I left that night
When I saw you there
Because you pushed me
Way beyond repair
Don't think you have the right
To reach out again
Because you pushed me
Way beyond repair