Better off Dead

[00:09.26] It lives in my home, it sleeps on my floor
[00:12.98] Every night I hear it's nails on my door
[00:17.46] And kill every bit of hope before it leaves my pores
[00:21.29] Stop coming to my house
[00:24.07] Stop stealing words from my mouth
[00:28.65] So I bite my tongue
[00:30.48] To avoid confrontation or offending anyone
[00:36.04] (Anxiety)
[00:36.93] I'll never win; I can't win
[00:42.42] Just a hopeless villain
[00:49.88] I don't know when my demons conquered
[00:52.57] Or when my skeleton softened
[00:59.04] Or when the rest broke free from the closet
[01:04.66] But I know every damn thing put a nail in my coffin
[01:11.95] Distant, slime, lost, scum
[01:14.75] All of the above
[01:16.51] An embarrassment to everyone I love
[01:18.46] The reaper still hasn't come
[01:22.11] I'm so sick of myself
[01:27.57] So sick of screaming for help
[01:32.13] I'm still in fucking hell
[01:36.88] I'm still in fucking hell
[01:41.41] Rendered motionless by anxiety
[01:46.04] A dead man to be
[01:47.92] Trapped by this dead mans dreams
[01:51.51] Cursed with the nervous luck of being me
[02:21.96] Fuck the doctor; fuck his pills
[02:25.06] Fuck the self-loathing that stems from the guilt
[02:30.65] Fuck my arrogance; fuck my carelessness
[02:36.81] It's irrelevant; fuck my therapist
[02:43.87] Better off dead
[02:46.62] Let the grievance commence
[02:49.49] I'm still second best
[02:51.23] I'm still second best
[02:57.72] Fuck
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