Feel Someone

I thought I'd see him at the funeral
That he'd come over and comfort me
And we'd laugh at the trivia
I thought I'd see him at the funeral

I couldn't see the casket
Only the backs of the people in front of it
And they followed the hearse as it drove away
I never saw the casket

I had to dive into a friend of his' arms
Hold him till it felt awkward
And he dressed the same but he wasn't him
I held on to a friend's arm

I thought he would feel closer
Like people say they do
That when they are the most alone
They feel someone in the room

I thought I could appreciate the cycle
We must make space for the newborns and all that
But I'm the selfish earth destroyer
I just want my friend back