My Life

Oh my gosh, it's Renzo

Do you wanna know just how I feel inside?
Take a walk in my life, my life
The old me is dead and gone, goodbye
In the prison y'all doin' laps, wishin' I could fly
I wish that I could fly, but I can't
I wish that I could cry, but I can't
Sometimes I wanna die, but I can't go
Look my daughter in the eyes, I know my pain show

I mean, I'm happy I'm alive and I'm grateful
And I could give you all I got, you still ungrateful
And I remember bein' hungry, now my plate full
Everybody turn they back and that was painful
Dammit, I can't understand it
I know I was dead wrong, just know I ain't plannin'
You know you too head strong
So am I, we clashin'
I stopped poppin' Xanax
But I'm still off the planet
Percocet and lean, 'cause it's helpin' me imagine
A place where, if they love you, then they love you, nigga, that's it
All of these distractions, all these diamonds dancin'
I would make this pain disappear if I knew magic
Ask me how I'm doin', I say, "I'm okay"
And that's the only time I lie, 'cause I don't wanna say
That everything is goin' wrong and I don't feel the same
I'm sorry ma, I know I said it wouldn't be this way
Remember I was sellin' dope, you found my crack cocaine?
Remember when you told me take that gun up off my waist?
And what I say? I told you, "No, because it's war time"
Felt me wit' that .45
Choppas look at me like I'm a gold mine

Do you wanna know just how I feel inside?
Take a walk in my life, my life
The old me is dead and gone, goodbye
In the prison y'all doin' laps, wishin' I could fly
I wish that I could fly, but I can't
I wish that I could cry, but I can't
Sometimes I wanna die, but I can't go
Look my daughter in the eyes, I know my pain show