Clotting

I'm exorcising demons like they owe me
Well, they own me, and I let them just the same
I crack the weak sensations that control me
That console me through the tailspins I can't tame

I smell of something rotting
I'm unknotting every promise that I made
I wipe the blood, besotting
Pray for clotting, I remember all you didn't say
Didn't say

Didn't say, didn't say I was perfect or unchanging
Rearranging how I feel about you every day
I hate the way I hate you
No one made you stay up with her, give in, and walk away

I swallowed something rotting
I'm unknotting every promise that you made
I wipe the blood, besotting
Pray for clotting, here I live with all you threw away

So I sever ties 'cause I know it's all
Bloody knees and broken bone
And I can't kneel in dumpster gallows
At your table, dead, ideal
I heard you say you're all alone
I'd wring my own neck raw refusing to atone

To atone
To atone, to atone