Sorry I'm Me

'Cause I did to them
We used to be friends
I consciously fucked then

I'm scared of my phone
If I get a text
Not often it's good stuff

I haven't seen you in months
You must be cuffed up
You must be living the life hustling
You must be getting your money the fuck up

Funny you say it 'cause nones of its true
Yeah I'm fucked but it's funny to you
I been a clown and they put me down but really I'm loving the view
It can't get worse for me down here but it can get worse for you
Drugs that I'm using get me confused
I think that it hurts the music

I think I'm the first to do this
But really I'm coming in last
I been the one that's been pulling me back
Hand on my back, I been tugging my jacket
I could've set myself up, couldn't pass
I was the one that they'd shush up in class
I was the one with the mask on
Smiling in passing but underneath it its darkness

Sorry you had to hear it
I'm Sorry I'm gav Honest
Got so bad I'm practically fearless
Getting better at breaking a promise
Getting worser for wear
Believing the stuff that I heard
I'm smelling kush from my hair
Never was healthy don't fuck with a pear
I told my therapist nothing is fair

I'm Stuck in the chair
Stuck in it
If it fucks me up then I fuck with it
I been accustomed to nothingness
I been accustomed to shrugging and worrying
Problem accepting the terms that I'm coming to

I'm just a muggle the struggle is humbling
I'm one of them

(But I'm not one of them)