Orange Blood

I'll probably never ever get it right

They'll never understand you and I told you
Playing with that flame, that shit gon' burn you
Just my friends becauuse I'm hurtin'
Sometimes I wish I was a different person
Sometimes I wish I had my mom to hold me
This journey through the darkness it gets lonely
The people closest to me barely know me
Not much I wouldn't give to see my homies
I've been known to hide within my own walls
Hope these diamonds blind you from my own flaws
Lying to myself because I have to
This life thing is a never-ending battle
But all this shit is all I've ever prayed for
The Lord knows that this shit is what I'm made for
It's 3am girl fuck you think you came for?
All this hating, don't think they could hate more
Now they think I'm plus, I gotta spend
I pray to God forgive me for my sins
Cause I told her that I loved her, lied again
And I know that she gon' hold me in the end
Just take me back to when life was more simple
Used to write my name in raindrops on my window
Now on dates I don't give her my info
Now if she wanna fuck I need initials
I've been known to hide inside my own walls
Please don't be offended if I don't call
I'm probably high as fuck, I probably dozed off
All these fucking drugs - I need a load off
Going back and forth 'bout shit that ain't true
She sayin' "So lately you just ain't you"
"Don't you ever let this bullshit change you"
"You made me a promise you would stay you"
"You would stay true"