Really Scared

[00:04.20] Yeah, I feel like people are really weird about admitting when they're scared
[00:12.42] If you're not scared ever, you're just lying or something. You're being weird
[00:19.72] Ten days in the Bay left
[00:22.45] And I don't mean to overthink that
[00:24.22] Got a one-way straight to LAX
[00:27.06] And I ain't blinked yet
[00:28.90] I know you think that
[00:29.89] I done figured out this whole thing
[00:31.75] Like where is chink at?
[00:33.58] Segue to Lil Dicky getting bigger than Yao Ming
[00:36.29] But can I shrink that? Where my shrink at?
[00:39.95] I don't know what to feel, everything has gotten totally real
[00:42.64] Everything I always wanted right in front of me with nobody near
[00:45.44] So it's weird that I'm overly scared, but I'm so unprepared
[00:48.14] Holding a beer, I'm witholding the fear
[00:50.04] Not in the clear but I'm kind of revered
[00:51.88] And yeah I might appear like the chill type
[00:54.64] The veneer's not real in the real-life
[00:56.41] What it feel like?
[00:58.27] Thanksgiving I was missing, I ain't even miss 'em
[01:00.02] Girlfriend hella distant, I ain't even listen
[01:02.82] Only shit I really care about is spittin writtens
[01:05.55] This is the beginning
[01:06.56] I'm just getting into the game
[01:07.47] My world's not spinning the same
[01:09.39] The shit looking like it's bigger than Dave
[01:11.18] It's so crazy
[01:12.93] But when all this sit in the stake
[01:13.83] I can't brake
[01:14.78] Even if I'm afraid it might change me
[01:17.58] If you let me
[01:19.30] You know I could get deep
[01:22.10] Really hope you ready
[01:23.96] I'm coming through
[01:24.83] Running you
[01:26.66] That's what I do
[01:27.52] Just know that it's all for you
[01:32.15] So what you gonna choose?
[01:33.95] Afraid to say OK
[01:36.78] And I know I'm not gonna get in the way
[01:40.37] But I'm afraid
[01:42.16] Who I want to be is what I became
[01:44.87] But I'm ashamed
[01:45.76] Ain't no coming back
[01:47.62] Facing what I wanted
[01:49.51] But it's all fucking weird
[01:54.15] And now I'm really scared
[01:55.94] I ain't made from the projects
[01:57.78] But you know I treat the game like a project
[02:00.55] So you know it's not the same kind of progress
[02:02.49] Different process, but I digress
[02:05.22] Other rappers didn't blow overnight
[02:07.08] They ain't have a 9-5 that was totally ripe
[02:09.73] They was all up on the grind from the moment they write
[02:11.68] At 25, hadn't even done a show in my life
[02:14.35] It's like - "Damn, I'm a rapper, how did that happen?"
[02:17.13] I was making ass then back when
[02:18.97] Only used to rapping to my Mac then
[02:21.77] Youtube views came in, like "Shoot, let's practice"
[02:22.65] Trying to tell you I'm not bred for this shit
[02:26.36] Despite that, feeling like I'm meant for this shit
[02:28.16] But like that, everything depends on this shit?
[02:31.95] And I ain't betting against it
[02:32.86] But I ain't had a moment to reflect what I'm betting against it
[02:35.62] I'm next even though it's pretentious, I sense it
[02:38.39] Relentlous, but it leave me defenseless
[02:41.03] I guess I should learn to accept it but it's hectic
[02:43.85] Oh, you want a condensed list?
[02:45.64] I'm worried that I'm about to give my all to it, 100%
[02:47.48] You ain't got to know it all to discover what's left
[02:50.23] Pretty fucking intense
[02:52.02] And I'm worried that I got a lot of gall when it comes to success
[02:54.84] Telling y'all that it's 100%
[02:56.60] But what happens if I fall short of what I call the surest of bets?
[03:00.38] Cause what's 100%?
[03:01.37] What's 100% is that it'll take a lot to make me content
[03:04.02] And I'm about to chase around a legend that I fucking invented
[03:06.83] While I'm neglecting everybody that I love and respected
[03:08.72] Because I hate the thought of coming in second
[03:11.51] And I don't want to do no second guessing when it comes to progressing
[03:14.29] Because I really couldn't stomach regretting my effort
[03:16.01] When I'm at the end and I'm assessing if I could have done better
[03:18.83] I better be able to be it or never, or be the best ever
[03:22.47] But if somehow I'm really that special then I'm about to deal with mad pressure
[03:25.15] I fear that when I finish my assessment I'mma be in depression
[03:28.82] Because I'll see a lot of me is regressing
[03:30.72] It's obvious to me that to be the best a lot of me is repressing itself
[03:33.48] I wonder what I'll see in reflections?
[03:36.19] I wonder if I'll run into a woman, cool, but come in second
[03:38.00] Or if I'm bound to be the fool at the weddings
[03:39.83] Alone and regretting the whole thing
[03:41.76] Now you're seeing why it's so big
[03:43.56] What would y'all do if y'all were the old me?
[03:46.39] Get involved and you gotta give the whole thing
[03:48.12] This is no fling, this devoting
[03:50.98] Every motherfucking part of yourself
[03:52.78] No matter whatever the cards you was dealt
[03:54.56] You going all in
[03:56.43] I don't know about y'all, but I'm gone
[03:57.33] And I don't know if I'm balling or balling
[04:00.04] If you let me
[04:02.87] You know I could get deep
[04:04.65] Really hope you ready
[04:07.39] I'm coming through
[04:08.28] Running you
[04:09.23] That's what I do
[04:11.06] Just know that it's all for you
[04:14.70] So what you gonna choose?
[04:17.57] Afraid to say OK
[04:19.38] And I know I'm not gonna get in the way
[04:22.91] But I'm afraid
[04:24.87] Who I want to be is what I became
[04:27.50] But I'm ashamed
[04:29.45] Ain't no coming back
[04:31.24] Facing what I wanted
[04:33.05] But it's all fucking weird
[04:36.77] And now I'm really scared
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