Close My Eyes
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Yeah, been a long road, yeah, it's been a long time
'Member I was twelve when I wrote my first rhyme
Livin' in hell inside of my mind
Outside, don't know the feelings I hide
Then I got older, start to make songs
Feelings got colder, jot in my palms
Teacher don't know the weight of mind
Turn in my folder start of grade nine
Wish I could've done it back in grade six
Outside feel dark, but I'ma make hits
Sold my time, was time to take risks
Trade in my flesh to flash out my wrist
Hit up that studio the first time
Didn't know then I'd take about
Five-hundred more 'till I put out a song
An Artesia was born, but that just was the start
One of those studios made a few hits
One of them kept me from being homeless
But then I turned a new page of my life
And was tired of waiting, I wanted to fly
Flyin' meant lose a homie, Nandina
Flyin' meant lose another, I see ya'
Flyin' meant honestly, I shouldn't be here
Never tried it myself, but hell did that reaper
Broken car, a broken heart
A broken promise didn't make me stop
Broke feels, oh, so long ago
But just wrote my check to write me off
Spent about twenty-thousand on the tour
Independent, I ain't got it offshore
Bank account been froze like four months in
But I know y'all got the boy
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Closing that door again
Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
Where does the start begin?
But I'm on the
Upside at the wrong time
Outside is on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Holdin' them closely while they dyin' slowly
That moment in time tend to rip you in half
The scars on your flesh you can try and correct
But they won't go away when you taking a bath
Was taken aback, way in the past
My own homie stuck a blade in my back
I ain't once try to move like a snake
So I can't be mad when they labeled you that
Incompatible down to the ions
In the mountains, where my hill to die on?
Heart colder than a fucking crayon
I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
Hold up Drex, I just need a sec'
I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
Learn to listen more, start speaking less
My own momma used to take me to the store
And then leave me, just to make me search for her
Had to leave a really good girl
'Cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
If you feel the pain that I'm tryna lay
And you relate, then I'll hurt for you
If you tryna travel down this way and then end up lost
Just know I will search for you
I was like six, I wrote my first line
Opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
You're blessed, but your working, you're learning the time
And it's due 'till like five, step out, burning a light
It's two forty-five in a church while I cry
The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
Question my worth, do I deserve life?
Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Closing that door again
Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
Where does the start begin?
But I'm on the
Upside at the wrong time
Outside is on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
(Why are you inside my head? My dear) She said, "Say what you want"
I ain't have words, these feelings untouched
Like I been holding onto your arm
Memories fade, I can't recall love
Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
Same old shit with my heart loose
You ain't my friend, if you was, I forgave you
I wasn't enough, only thinking I save you
(Like I'm) Fight 'em wars myself
And I'm the only soldier still standing here
And found love through the grapevine
But I'm having trouble understanding it
There's white noise in the silence
From the aftermath of the argument
And gaslights when we break off
Now I just wanna be alone again
You break my heart by choice
Not that shit you make in your head
Feel my brain splat in my dreams
When I end my life instead
And this selfish bitch is my end
"Can't do anything," she said
Kill myself this time, for real
Blood stains on the edge of my head, like
Told my bitches, "I'ma make it alright"
There's four-hundred goals and I'm reaching that line
Stars have been falling and matters allies
But I left the earth for a moment to die
She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
She only know what I tell her
The pain is 'cause I don't want three of them serpents to cry
'Member I was twelve when I wrote my first rhyme
Livin' in hell inside of my mind
Outside, don't know the feelings I hide
Then I got older, start to make songs
Feelings got colder, jot in my palms
Teacher don't know the weight of mind
Turn in my folder start of grade nine
Wish I could've done it back in grade six
Outside feel dark, but I'ma make hits
Sold my time, was time to take risks
Trade in my flesh to flash out my wrist
Hit up that studio the first time
Didn't know then I'd take about
Five-hundred more 'till I put out a song
An Artesia was born, but that just was the start
One of those studios made a few hits
One of them kept me from being homeless
But then I turned a new page of my life
And was tired of waiting, I wanted to fly
Flyin' meant lose a homie, Nandina
Flyin' meant lose another, I see ya'
Flyin' meant honestly, I shouldn't be here
Never tried it myself, but hell did that reaper
Broken car, a broken heart
A broken promise didn't make me stop
Broke feels, oh, so long ago
But just wrote my check to write me off
Spent about twenty-thousand on the tour
Independent, I ain't got it offshore
Bank account been froze like four months in
But I know y'all got the boy
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Closing that door again
Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
Where does the start begin?
But I'm on the
Upside at the wrong time
Outside is on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Holdin' them closely while they dyin' slowly
That moment in time tend to rip you in half
The scars on your flesh you can try and correct
But they won't go away when you taking a bath
Was taken aback, way in the past
My own homie stuck a blade in my back
I ain't once try to move like a snake
So I can't be mad when they labeled you that
Incompatible down to the ions
In the mountains, where my hill to die on?
Heart colder than a fucking crayon
I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
Hold up Drex, I just need a sec'
I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
Learn to listen more, start speaking less
My own momma used to take me to the store
And then leave me, just to make me search for her
Had to leave a really good girl
'Cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
If you feel the pain that I'm tryna lay
And you relate, then I'll hurt for you
If you tryna travel down this way and then end up lost
Just know I will search for you
I was like six, I wrote my first line
Opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
You're blessed, but your working, you're learning the time
And it's due 'till like five, step out, burning a light
It's two forty-five in a church while I cry
The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
Question my worth, do I deserve life?
Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
Closing that door again
Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
Where does the start begin?
But I'm on the
Upside at the wrong time
Outside is on fire
Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
(Why are you inside my head? My dear) She said, "Say what you want"
I ain't have words, these feelings untouched
Like I been holding onto your arm
Memories fade, I can't recall love
Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
Same old shit with my heart loose
You ain't my friend, if you was, I forgave you
I wasn't enough, only thinking I save you
(Like I'm) Fight 'em wars myself
And I'm the only soldier still standing here
And found love through the grapevine
But I'm having trouble understanding it
There's white noise in the silence
From the aftermath of the argument
And gaslights when we break off
Now I just wanna be alone again
You break my heart by choice
Not that shit you make in your head
Feel my brain splat in my dreams
When I end my life instead
And this selfish bitch is my end
"Can't do anything," she said
Kill myself this time, for real
Blood stains on the edge of my head, like
Told my bitches, "I'ma make it alright"
There's four-hundred goals and I'm reaching that line
Stars have been falling and matters allies
But I left the earth for a moment to die
She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
She only know what I tell her
The pain is 'cause I don't want three of them serpents to cry
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:12.92] Yeah, been a long road, yeah, it's been a long time
[00:15.63] 'Member I was twelve when I wrote my first rhyme
[00:17.58] Livin' in hell inside of my mind
[00:19.03] Outside, don't know the feelings I hide
[00:21.00] Then I got older, start to make songs
[00:22.82] Feelings got colder, jot in my palms
[00:24.63] Teacher don't know the weight of mind
[00:26.48] Turn in my folder start of grade nine
[00:28.27] Wish I could've done it back in grade six
[00:29.85] Outside feel dark, but I'ma make hits
[00:31.79] Sold my time, was time to take risks
[00:33.53] Trade in my flesh to flash out my wrist
[00:35.38] Hit up that studio the first time
[00:37.16] Didn't know then I'd take about
[00:38.45] Five-hundred more 'till I put out a song
[00:40.53] An Artesia was born, but that just was the start
[00:42.55] One of those studios made a few hits
[00:44.34] One of them kept me from being homeless
[00:46.00] But then I turned a new page of my life
[00:47.66] And was tired of waiting, I wanted to fly
[00:49.77] Flyin' meant lose a homie, Nandina
[00:51.41] Flyin' meant lose another, I see ya'
[00:53.18] Flyin' meant honestly, I shouldn't be here
[00:54.85] Never tried it myself, but hell did that reaper
[00:57.31] Broken car, a broken heart
[00:58.53] A broken promise didn't make me stop
[01:00.51] Broke feels, oh, so long ago
[01:01.97] But just wrote my check to write me off
[01:03.99] Spent about twenty-thousand on the tour
[01:05.90] Independent, I ain't got it offshore
[01:07.69] Bank account been froze like four months in
[01:09.62] But I know y'all got the boy
[01:11.93] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[01:14.98] Closing that door again
[01:18.96] Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
[01:22.14] Where does the start begin?
[01:25.00] But I'm on the
[01:25.79] Upside at the wrong time
[01:30.02] Outside is on fire
[01:33.48] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[01:40.25] Holdin' them closely while they dyin' slowly
[01:41.82] That moment in time tend to rip you in half
[01:43.71] The scars on your flesh you can try and correct
[01:45.32] But they won't go away when you taking a bath
[01:47.29] Was taken aback, way in the past
[01:49.07] My own homie stuck a blade in my back
[01:50.95] I ain't once try to move like a snake
[01:52.74] So I can't be mad when they labeled you that
[01:54.61] Incompatible down to the ions
[01:56.45] In the mountains, where my hill to die on?
[01:58.20] Heart colder than a fucking crayon
[02:00.08] I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
[02:01.86] Hold up Drex, I just need a sec'
[02:03.28] I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
[02:05.04] Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
[02:06.98] Learn to listen more, start speaking less
[02:08.52] My own momma used to take me to the store
[02:10.45] And then leave me, just to make me search for her
[02:12.26] Had to leave a really good girl
[02:13.61] 'Cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
[02:15.75] If you feel the pain that I'm tryna lay
[02:17.75] And you relate, then I'll hurt for you
[02:19.43] If you tryna travel down this way and then end up lost
[02:21.88] Just know I will search for you
[02:23.24] I was like six, I wrote my first line
[02:25.09] Opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
[02:26.62] You're blessed, but your working, you're learning the time
[02:28.34] And it's due 'till like five, step out, burning a light
[02:30.18] It's two forty-five in a church while I cry
[02:32.05] The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
[02:33.93] Question my worth, do I deserve life?
[02:35.73] Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
[02:37.89] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[02:40.96] Closing that door again
[02:44.95] Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
[02:48.17] Where does the start begin?
[02:50.12] But I'm on the
[02:52.51] Upside at the wrong time
[02:55.91] Outside is on fire
[02:59.34] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[03:02.16] (Why are you inside my head? My dear) She said, "Say what you want"
[03:07.62] I ain't have words, these feelings untouched
[03:09.42] Like I been holding onto your arm
[03:11.23] Memories fade, I can't recall love
[03:12.91] Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
[03:15.27] Same old shit with my heart loose
[03:16.62] You ain't my friend, if you was, I forgave you
[03:18.23] I wasn't enough, only thinking I save you
[03:20.53] (Like I'm) Fight 'em wars myself
[03:21.88] And I'm the only soldier still standing here
[03:23.95] And found love through the grapevine
[03:25.79] But I'm having trouble understanding it
[03:27.54] There's white noise in the silence
[03:29.19] From the aftermath of the argument
[03:31.17] And gaslights when we break off
[03:32.88] Now I just wanna be alone again
[03:34.78] You break my heart by choice
[03:36.20] Not that shit you make in your head
[03:37.93] Feel my brain splat in my dreams
[03:39.87] When I end my life instead
[03:41.76] And this selfish bitch is my end
[03:43.46] "Can't do anything," she said
[03:45.21] Kill myself this time, for real
[03:47.04] Blood stains on the edge of my head, like
[03:49.22] Told my bitches, "I'ma make it alright"
[03:50.97] There's four-hundred goals and I'm reaching that line
[03:52.81] Stars have been falling and matters allies
[03:54.55] But I left the earth for a moment to die
[03:56.48] She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
[03:58.23] Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
[03:59.99] She only know what I tell her
[04:01.25] The pain is 'cause I don't want three of them serpents to cry
[04:03.46]
[00:15.63] 'Member I was twelve when I wrote my first rhyme
[00:17.58] Livin' in hell inside of my mind
[00:19.03] Outside, don't know the feelings I hide
[00:21.00] Then I got older, start to make songs
[00:22.82] Feelings got colder, jot in my palms
[00:24.63] Teacher don't know the weight of mind
[00:26.48] Turn in my folder start of grade nine
[00:28.27] Wish I could've done it back in grade six
[00:29.85] Outside feel dark, but I'ma make hits
[00:31.79] Sold my time, was time to take risks
[00:33.53] Trade in my flesh to flash out my wrist
[00:35.38] Hit up that studio the first time
[00:37.16] Didn't know then I'd take about
[00:38.45] Five-hundred more 'till I put out a song
[00:40.53] An Artesia was born, but that just was the start
[00:42.55] One of those studios made a few hits
[00:44.34] One of them kept me from being homeless
[00:46.00] But then I turned a new page of my life
[00:47.66] And was tired of waiting, I wanted to fly
[00:49.77] Flyin' meant lose a homie, Nandina
[00:51.41] Flyin' meant lose another, I see ya'
[00:53.18] Flyin' meant honestly, I shouldn't be here
[00:54.85] Never tried it myself, but hell did that reaper
[00:57.31] Broken car, a broken heart
[00:58.53] A broken promise didn't make me stop
[01:00.51] Broke feels, oh, so long ago
[01:01.97] But just wrote my check to write me off
[01:03.99] Spent about twenty-thousand on the tour
[01:05.90] Independent, I ain't got it offshore
[01:07.69] Bank account been froze like four months in
[01:09.62] But I know y'all got the boy
[01:11.93] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[01:14.98] Closing that door again
[01:18.96] Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
[01:22.14] Where does the start begin?
[01:25.00] But I'm on the
[01:25.79] Upside at the wrong time
[01:30.02] Outside is on fire
[01:33.48] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[01:40.25] Holdin' them closely while they dyin' slowly
[01:41.82] That moment in time tend to rip you in half
[01:43.71] The scars on your flesh you can try and correct
[01:45.32] But they won't go away when you taking a bath
[01:47.29] Was taken aback, way in the past
[01:49.07] My own homie stuck a blade in my back
[01:50.95] I ain't once try to move like a snake
[01:52.74] So I can't be mad when they labeled you that
[01:54.61] Incompatible down to the ions
[01:56.45] In the mountains, where my hill to die on?
[01:58.20] Heart colder than a fucking crayon
[02:00.08] I ain't get a shoulder I could cry on
[02:01.86] Hold up Drex, I just need a sec'
[02:03.28] I just gotta bleed to proceed to hex
[02:05.04] Sippin' margaritas, rocking Regal vest
[02:06.98] Learn to listen more, start speaking less
[02:08.52] My own momma used to take me to the store
[02:10.45] And then leave me, just to make me search for her
[02:12.26] Had to leave a really good girl
[02:13.61] 'Cause I can't spend my life finding worth for her
[02:15.75] If you feel the pain that I'm tryna lay
[02:17.75] And you relate, then I'll hurt for you
[02:19.43] If you tryna travel down this way and then end up lost
[02:21.88] Just know I will search for you
[02:23.24] I was like six, I wrote my first line
[02:25.09] Opened my eyes, then watch a verse fly
[02:26.62] You're blessed, but your working, you're learning the time
[02:28.34] And it's due 'till like five, step out, burning a light
[02:30.18] It's two forty-five in a church while I cry
[02:32.05] The tears startin' to hurt and then burn while they dry
[02:33.93] Question my worth, do I deserve life?
[02:35.73] Love you so much, save the hurt for the night
[02:37.89] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[02:40.96] Closing that door again
[02:44.95] Can feel the sorrow, lost inside tomorrow
[02:48.17] Where does the start begin?
[02:50.12] But I'm on the
[02:52.51] Upside at the wrong time
[02:55.91] Outside is on fire
[02:59.34] Don't wanna follow, I can feel tomorrow
[03:02.16] (Why are you inside my head? My dear) She said, "Say what you want"
[03:07.62] I ain't have words, these feelings untouched
[03:09.42] Like I been holding onto your arm
[03:11.23] Memories fade, I can't recall love
[03:12.91] Dark room, like I'm falling in deep with my heart moved
[03:15.27] Same old shit with my heart loose
[03:16.62] You ain't my friend, if you was, I forgave you
[03:18.23] I wasn't enough, only thinking I save you
[03:20.53] (Like I'm) Fight 'em wars myself
[03:21.88] And I'm the only soldier still standing here
[03:23.95] And found love through the grapevine
[03:25.79] But I'm having trouble understanding it
[03:27.54] There's white noise in the silence
[03:29.19] From the aftermath of the argument
[03:31.17] And gaslights when we break off
[03:32.88] Now I just wanna be alone again
[03:34.78] You break my heart by choice
[03:36.20] Not that shit you make in your head
[03:37.93] Feel my brain splat in my dreams
[03:39.87] When I end my life instead
[03:41.76] And this selfish bitch is my end
[03:43.46] "Can't do anything," she said
[03:45.21] Kill myself this time, for real
[03:47.04] Blood stains on the edge of my head, like
[03:49.22] Told my bitches, "I'ma make it alright"
[03:50.97] There's four-hundred goals and I'm reaching that line
[03:52.81] Stars have been falling and matters allies
[03:54.55] But I left the earth for a moment to die
[03:56.48] She's seen the vividest pictures of mine
[03:58.23] Told 'em my stories, I've told 'em my lies
[03:59.99] She only know what I tell her
[04:01.25] The pain is 'cause I don't want three of them serpents to cry
[04:03.46]