Prosophobia

Am I dead
Am I dead
Does it matter what kind of life I have led
Constantly compared to all of my peers
Debilitated by my accumulating fears
My accumulating fears

And now I struggle alone
As I get left behind
Uniquely useless
I am one of a kind

Paralyzed
I'm frozen in place
This world moves
At a much faster pace
Loved ones
Become
So shapeless and distant
I had a chance to grow
I had a chance to grow
Had a chance to grow
But I missed it
I had my chance to grow
But I fucking missed it

What do I want
Is it within my reach
Procrastination
Taking hold over me

Struggle alone as I get left behind
Uniquely useless i am one of a kind

What if I fail
What if I fail
Choke on the thought as my life grows cold and stale
What if I fail
What if I fail
Give up the ghost
Hope and passion have set sail
What must I do
To be worthy of peace
Running out of time
I just need a reprieve
What must I do
To be worthy of peace
I can not stay here
But I can not leave