Razorblades

Got my razor blade buried deep in my wrist
My blood mixed up with poison
Watched the venom leak from the slit
And now I count the days
I've been trapped in my head
Constant dreams of eating lead
And fantasies of my death
None of these pills gon' help me
Hoping the liquor will drown me
Self destructive
I'm a live bomb
So don't come around me
Looking for someone to help me
Hoping the liquor will drown me
Put me six feet
Bury me deep
I just wanna sleep soundly
Forgetting how to love
I drown the passion with the pain
Motherfucker
So selective
No forgiveness in this game
You get no love and no respect
Unless there's something they can gain
But when you're gone and it's too late
They gonna act like you were friends
If you really get thinking this shit's sad
We all tryna eat what's wrong with that
Invest all your time you put it all up on the line
Another victim to the grind you want it bad
This one goes out to all you
All I gotta say is fuck you
I don't wanna see you
I don't wanna talk not even thinking of you
You weren't there
When I decided to risk it all away
You weren't there
When I grieved the pain of losing my best friend
You just watched from the sidelines
Watch me rise to the limelight
Now you should love
Now you wanna work
Now you wanna a piece of my time
Well bitch that's too bad you can't have the shit I have
I worked too hard to get here
I've got this blood still stained up on my hands
All alone inside this prison that I like to call my brain
Suicide is on my mind
I start to think about the end
I got my razor blades
Buried deep in my wrist
My blood mixed up with poison
Watched the venom leak from the slit
And Now I count the days
I've been trapped in my head
Constant dreams of eating lead
And fantasies of my death
None of these pills gon' help me
Hopin' the liquor will drown me
Self destructive
I'm a live bomb
So don't come around me
Lookin' for someone to help me
Hopin' the liquor will drown me
Put me six feet
Bury me deep
I just wanna sleep soundly
Riding in the night, in my mind is evil thoughts
Gotta make them right, I know my peers wanna see me falling
All up out of spite, always trying to put me wrong
All these niggas fuckin' swish after I release a song
Never had much guidance
Never trusted nobody
Cause these people always lying
Yeah these people always lying
At the age of sixteen I was lost and frightened
Quarantined myself cause I felt like a virus
Grew up in the dark cause I was treated differently
So I became heartless
Had a razor blade
Let it split my vein
Yes I love the pain
I don't feel no shame
Reaper calls my name
I'll be in the grave
Slowly rot away
Don't remember me when I'm six feet deep
Still be in your dreams
Won't sleep peacefully
Haunt you for eternity
I have always been the misfit
I've been stuck up in the abyss
Sitting alone in the silence
The darkness showed me my guidance
I am lost up in the darkness
But you know that I don't mind it
Lost my soul and I can't find it
Got my razor blade
Buried deep in my wrist
My blood mixed up with poison
Watched the venom leak from the slit
And now I count the days
I've been trapped in my head
Constant dreams of eating lead
And fantasies of my death
None of these pills gonna help me
Hoping the liquor will drown me
Self destructive
I'm a light bomb
So don't come around me
Looking for someone to help me
Hoping the liquor will drown me
Put me six feet
Bury me deep
I just wanna sleep soundly