Entry 55
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I don't want to love you, I hate the fact I still do I hate the fact that one day all
The people close gon' hurt you I wish this anger that I held inside me was a virtue
When my angel bailed, I questioned who the hell I'd turn to?
New women in my life don't excite me much I keep my walls up high, they'll never get my trust I can't lean on a Person tryna be My crutch
Cause the second that I do, that's when it all blows up
I gave my life to you, I gave my
Heart, I gave my days, I gave my nights To you I shared my wrongs to try and Prove that I was
Right for you
The irony ensues, the beauty and the Pain to eventually see what time can do
I watched time age my mother, grow a Lot of white hairs and placed it on my Brother I watched time
Turn someone that I love become my Biggest enemy
To the point where we can't even speak and all we
Do is hate each other
That cuts me deep, I'm terrified that I'm becoming the person I said
I'd never be The one who never thinks That dreams could ever be reality And Gives up on their
Passions to settle for practicality The Ambition I possess is crippling and Maddening I want to do
So much but I don't think I got the Battery
Can someone please tell me who the Hell am I supposed to be?
And why do I feel like a burden to Those who would nurture me?
Maybe I'm too hard on myself
Maybe I had to lose you to find a part of myself
The answers to my questions getting Harder to tell Like accepting who
I am and finding comfort to
Fail I'm so scared of what others think Of me So I try to paint this imagery that I got it all
Together Really that's what's been Killing me
Cause I don't have a goddamn thing Mapped out in my
Life To be honest I've been lost,
Assed out, in debt, cashed out
On this dream in a city that's done
Eaten me alive And the only thing
I hope is that my words will be Reprised And I never got my closure
I'm just trying to heal with time I heard burdens are a blessing when it's done by God's design
All the struggles that I suffer I pray one day that I shine I pray one day that I see the throne and
Take it so that it's mine I pray one day That all my foes retreat and fall back in Line I pray one day
That I'm fine I pray But my prayers Ain't getting answered My homie told Me that his pops is battling
Some cancer I'm scared to finish Projects Can't bear to end the stanza When chapters close for
Good I think there's nothing coming After
And I don't want to change that Chapter So all I do is run away
I think my feet are getting tired
So maybe that's where I'mma stay
Maybe I'll just wash away
I can't change what I don't know
The people close gon' hurt you I wish this anger that I held inside me was a virtue
When my angel bailed, I questioned who the hell I'd turn to?
New women in my life don't excite me much I keep my walls up high, they'll never get my trust I can't lean on a Person tryna be My crutch
Cause the second that I do, that's when it all blows up
I gave my life to you, I gave my
Heart, I gave my days, I gave my nights To you I shared my wrongs to try and Prove that I was
Right for you
The irony ensues, the beauty and the Pain to eventually see what time can do
I watched time age my mother, grow a Lot of white hairs and placed it on my Brother I watched time
Turn someone that I love become my Biggest enemy
To the point where we can't even speak and all we
Do is hate each other
That cuts me deep, I'm terrified that I'm becoming the person I said
I'd never be The one who never thinks That dreams could ever be reality And Gives up on their
Passions to settle for practicality The Ambition I possess is crippling and Maddening I want to do
So much but I don't think I got the Battery
Can someone please tell me who the Hell am I supposed to be?
And why do I feel like a burden to Those who would nurture me?
Maybe I'm too hard on myself
Maybe I had to lose you to find a part of myself
The answers to my questions getting Harder to tell Like accepting who
I am and finding comfort to
Fail I'm so scared of what others think Of me So I try to paint this imagery that I got it all
Together Really that's what's been Killing me
Cause I don't have a goddamn thing Mapped out in my
Life To be honest I've been lost,
Assed out, in debt, cashed out
On this dream in a city that's done
Eaten me alive And the only thing
I hope is that my words will be Reprised And I never got my closure
I'm just trying to heal with time I heard burdens are a blessing when it's done by God's design
All the struggles that I suffer I pray one day that I shine I pray one day that I see the throne and
Take it so that it's mine I pray one day That all my foes retreat and fall back in Line I pray one day
That I'm fine I pray But my prayers Ain't getting answered My homie told Me that his pops is battling
Some cancer I'm scared to finish Projects Can't bear to end the stanza When chapters close for
Good I think there's nothing coming After
And I don't want to change that Chapter So all I do is run away
I think my feet are getting tired
So maybe that's where I'mma stay
Maybe I'll just wash away
I can't change what I don't know