Meltdown

How could Ive let things get so far gone?
I never figured it would come to this.
The caution signs were there,
I just ignored them all, now
Im a fucking wreck and its all my fault.
If I could say just one last thing, it would be thank you,
and now I finally see the person that
I want to be. I had made a grave mistake, misprioritized. Hindsight afforded me a look into myself. Didnt act the way I should, now Im on my last nerve, If I had another chance Id give what you deserve. You deserve more. Ive fucked up everything, like humanitarian intervention. I tear myself apart like schizophrenic hallucinations. So now Im out here on my own, and I am on the run. Its time to rethink who I am, and what I should have done. Ive made mistakes, Ill learn from them. I hope one day you can forgive,
I wont forget.