Killin Myself To Live

[00:09.84] So now I'm faced with a decision to make
[00:11.50] I'm living in a race swimming with sinning and hate
[00:13.49] Grinning with fakes in the middle of a prison escape
[00:15.82] Incarcerated by my own thoughts
[00:17.78] Haunted with the feeling that my lifetime has grown short
[00:20.36] It's the beginning of the end for me until they empty me
[00:23.22] I fear the destiny of God and the Devil himself that have sent for me
[00:26.31] Cut to the chase at my birth
[00:28.12] Cut from the face of the Earth
[00:29.49] Cut from the grace of the church
[00:30.97] Cut through the waiste 'till it hurts
[00:31.95] No one around wants to help restore me
[00:33.95] Let's face it, a man's downfall makes for a better story
[00:37.31] The media will make a mockery out of the pain in my life
[00:39.45] And you can tune into the amusement on Entertainment Tonight
[00:41.90] Im a ghost of bad chemicals
[00:43.98] Became a grand spectacle, a punchline for the whole crowd to laugh hysterical
[00:47.86] Money, trash, and women with substance addictions
[00:50.58] Trapped in a chase trying to run from afflictions
[00:53.44] Drug dependencies, suicidal tendencies
[00:57.28] {} how could it ever be?
[00:58.72] Pretend celebrities with their lives in jepordy
[01:01.15] Sucess was the end of me
[01:02.56] Killing myself to live
[01:03.91] Alone in a crowded room
[01:05.26] Killing myself to live
[01:06.55] All the voices in my head say
[01:07.94] Killing myself to live
[01:09.18] I'm going through a {}
[01:10.74] Killing myself to live
[01:11.99] I swear I'll change tomorrow
[01:13.22] Killing myself to live
[01:14.44] I look for silence in some organized religion
[01:17.08] The more my eye twitches seem the more I despise the living
[01:19.95] My blasphemous past made blasphemous cash
[01:22.53] Now it's all stacked in the trash, my actions are trashed
[01:25.13] I'm running with the sheep
[01:26.38] Blessed all the meat
[01:27.35] Tongue's possessing my speech
[01:28.65] Part of an extraterrestral freak
[01:30.67] Got my sins deleted from God's computer
[01:32.72] Same God that bombs intruders of other God disputers
[01:35.81] My rock 'n' roll money was given to the law
[01:38.01] And seeing the police driving an automobile he shouldn't afford
[01:40.94] They stood and applaud the words I couldn't absorb
[01:43.16] 'Cause the hood here in the broad is all good {}
[01:46.62] I'm in a haze again
[01:47.72] Return to my wicked ways again
[01:49.33] Stricken from his praise again
[01:50.61] Ripping the page condemned
[01:52.07] Standing in darkness doing {} cuts my frown
[01:54.52] Hands of darkness crucifiction upside down
[01:57.43] Drug dependencies, suicidal tendencies
[02:01.13] {} how could it ever be?
[02:02.68] Pretend celebrities with their lives in jepordy
[02:05.25] Sucess was the end of me
[02:06.79] Killing myself to live
[02:08.15] Alone in a crowded room
[02:09.39] Killing myself to live
[02:10.57] All the voices in my head say
[02:11.99] Killing myself to live
[02:13.28] I'm going through a {}
[02:14.60] Killing myself to live
[02:15.83] I swear I'll change tomorrow
[02:17.37] Killing myself to live
[02:18.66] Rebound of obsession sleeping deep down in regression
[02:21.76] Found perfection in a {}
[02:23.82] If you can't beat it, join it
[02:25.34] Smoke it, drink it, fly off the injection {} depression
[02:29.42] Man, what a rush life's {} in a flush
[02:31.88] The grandness of the rush, stranded I'm standing {}
[02:34.62] It's so easy to do wrong, so easy to spew hate
[02:37.16] I can't leave it and move on, believe me it's too late
[02:39.88] That's when I'm approached by the man from the network
[02:42.14] Said if I could maintain the madness, man I could get work
[02:44.99] They're gonna cut me a big cheque to invade my privacy
[02:47.85] Put me on the TV and claim demons inside of me
[02:50.56] Being myself is a surreal life
[02:52.71] Feels like my shield's died
[02:53.88] {}
[02:54.97] Empty's how I feel inside
[02:56.29] All of the players crying I needed this end to reality TV celebrity died meaningless
[03:01.51] Drug dependencies, suicidal tendencies
[03:04.10] {} how could it ever be?
[03:06.72] Pretend celebrities with their lives in jepordy
[03:09.19] Sucess was the end of me
[03:10.66] Killing myself to live
[03:11.82] Alone in a crowded room
[03:13.23] Killing myself to live
[03:14.55] All the voices in my head say
[03:16.00] Killing myself to live
[03:17.21] I'm going through a {}
[03:19.14] Killing myself to live
[03:19.90] I swear I'll change tomorrow
[03:21.34] Killing myself to live.
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