I'm Tryin'

Girl I'm tryin
And I can't hide, oh no more

Why am I all alone
In this home that's not a home
Just wanna talk to you and see where it all went wrong
I want you to call my phone
You wanna be on your own
You used to be my rock
But now you turn my heart to stone
I start to doze inside my car
Cuz all the paws are closed
I call some hoes, I smell like perfume,
Need to wash my clothes
It's how I cope
And I know it's not what I need
Cuz these days women are so heartless
They don't fucking bleed
But you cared so much
Maybe I was too scared to trust
I wasn't prepared for you
I wasn't prepared for us
You were always there with love
I was never there enough
Never gave my all
Because there's things I'm embarrassed of
But if you want me to go,
Then I'm going, I'm not slowing
And I feel so much pain
That you know I ain't showing
And I wish I could change
Girl I tried and I have prayed
But I just wish that I could put my pride aside and stay

Girl I'm tryin but I got demons locked up inside
And I can't hide, oh no more
Tears keep falling to the floor
Yeah, I'm tryin
All of these scars they remind me
My mind's been at war
You deserve so much more
Girl I'm tryin

My inner demons force me,
To do these things that source me
I think these drinks they source,
When they start calling me like georgie
Just know that I don't blame you,
For what our life has came to
I've had deeper issues,
And still have yet to find my breakthrough
I don't know why I'm like this,
Just know I tried to spite this
Because I truly feel the love we left behind was timeless
I hate this shit,
But I hate myself more
Why did I blame you
For the things I should've blame myself for
I was too cold to see that,
You tried to find where at my soul I bleed at
Been trying to open up
But something kept on holding me back
Just know I carry secrets,
And I'm too scared to leak them
You want my heart girl but
My heart is where they're buried deep in
I've been tryna find myself
But I don't know where to begin
My inner child wants to love
But I don't know how to free him
Yeah, and he shed tears for you today
Girl the only thing for sure is he'd say can I stay

Girl I'm tryin but I got demons locked up inside
And I can't hide, oh no more
Tears keep falling to the floor
Yeah, I'm tryin
All of these scars they remind me
My mind's been at war
You deserve so much more
Girl I'm tryin