Guilt

I thought everything would be just fine.
That we would make amends and we would be alright.
But I never got to say goodbye. I swear i'm losing my mind.
The more that time passes me by.

I've been living in a world crawling on my knees.
Fucking losing sleep. (Grinding my fucking teeth)
My innocence is tearing at the seams.
Why cant I escape this guilt that's haunting me?
It's strangling me.
But you'll never under stand that guilt will never set me free.
I'm a liar and a coward and my gut still turns within each passing hour.

Why cant I just close my eyes?
Why cant I just close my eyes?
Why cant I just close my eyes?
And say goodbye to this life of mine.

The weight of regret is fucking dragging me down.
Sinking deeper and deeper, forcing me to drown.
In a sea that has nothing left for me but a series of bad memories.
Nothing but a frayed sanity.

Why cant I just close my eyes?
Why cant I just close my eyes?
And say goodbye to this life of mine.
Because I'm losing my fucking mind.

I would do anything to put my thoughts at ease.
And rid myself of the man I said I would never be.
I'm a fuck up.
I'm a coward and I'm so fucking sorry.
I would do anything if I could just rest in peace.

I would do anything if I could just rest in peace