Downgrade Baby

You looked so happy when you were with her
In the pictures I saw that made me wish I could've been her
And I hate thinking of the past
It makes me think that love's a trap
I'm jealous of a version of you I'll never have

Cause I'm filling in the blanks with my broken brain
Sparks of doubt to fuel the flames

Cause it's not healthy
The way I compare myself to her
Like a downgrade, baby
Of everyone who came before
I spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love
Spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love
Falling in love

I know a million ways to disappoint you
My inner critics are convinced I don't deserve you
No, this old anxiety and self talk gets the best of me
It's dangerous, this self-fulfilling prophecy

Cause I'm filling in the blanks with my broken brain
Sparks of doubt to fuel the flames

Cause it's not healthy
The way I compare myself to her
Like a downgrade, baby
Of everyone who came before
I spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love
Spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love

Progress feels so pointless
Headed towards a cliff of doubt
Self-loathing bomb strapped to my bag
If we survive the fall somehow
Could we survive the fall?

Cause it's not healthy
The way I compare myself to her
Like a downgrade, baby
Of everyone who came before
Yeah it's not healthy
The way I did inside so much
I spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love
Spiral down in to the darkest place
Call it falling in love
Falling in love

Could we survive the fall somehow?