Self-defeated

I know I'm still young
but why am I so confused
pushed by so-called people
above me
Why do I hate what I'm doing

I have to shape it up
my life
get my fucking act together
stop everything
no escape
'cause I just can't take the pain

anxieties bring the pressure
I'm afraid of what I feel
robbed of my self-esteem
the intensity is so unreal

I can't touch the ones I love
when I don't know who they are
I'm looking over the edge
and it's tempting