Ambiguity

the ways i spend my days
it's never a topic of interest or a story to tell
but i will carry on and follow my path
it's long been time to set my sails

i will turn back time, this is not my life
i don't know why i keep visiting
insecurities, don't return to me

my mind holds me back
made up moments and worst case scenarios
every day, wasted time
and once again i fail to take a chance

when i look back, now i see ambiguity
bled through every time that you looked at me
insecurities, don't return to me

i will not let go of this image
moving pictures and reels of film
that play back again and again
behind my closed eyes
and it's real to me