The Humility Dilemma

I want a miracle, something to prove it all
Some act so great and tall to tell me I'm not wrong
My heaven isn't true, it's only what I choose
My faith is nothing new, I acquired it used
I'm disappointed, I'm disappointed
I remain hopeful
Is there an us and them? Is there even a victim?
I wanna claim that spot, especially when I'm not
I'm disappointed, I'm disappointed
I remain hopeful
I want to be humble, but saying that will
Always tell me that I'm full, giving it no room to grow
From my moment of birth I try to prove my worth
To everyone that I am somebody they'll like
I was told it was fair, that I would get my share
"Just don't drink or smoke or swear, and ignore them over there
And those sexual feelings, just shove them down and sing
You'll be confused when it occurs, and have issues when you're older
I'm disappointed, I'm disappointed
I remain hopeful