Clouds

Forcibly sacrifice all life for change
Leave nothing left but room for growth
Grieving life as each day
Quickly fades

The clouds
Above me never break
For as long as I've known
They've
Stayed in my sight
The cold gripping forced hand
Rooted to my
Forced isolation

Never needed faith to guide me in action
I forged my strength with my own suffering and blood
As the weights shift
I feels my legs breaking
Under the weight of all
I cannot control

I can no longer carry the things I cannot change
My built strength
Without any faith
I hallucinate
From time and time again

I can't just
Force myself to be
Comfortable with my
Growing shortcomings

I can't just
Force myself to be
Your role of common therapy

While you cling to thoughts of god
Saying your here
For the will of fiction beings

When will I see a change
Outside my own lack of faithful thinking

If he were real
God never felt misery
For his humans
While shedding our blood in his place

If he were real I'd reach to grab his hand
Hear him speak
Reject my thoughts
Prime reason Just
On why to kill him

I must reach through those fucking clouds
Grab him by the throat
Drag him to earth and teach him what love is

In the form of a human

The relentless suffering

Fuck
The price I have to pay
Fighting what I see living day to day.