An Attempt to Feel

Lost
Forgotten
Living by myself
Alone
In my inferno
Everything turns to coal
Day after day
Year after year
Of emptiness
Of nothingness
For the first time
I feel alive
After finding
What was lost
I'm back where I started
I slipped and fell
Right back into my hole
Into my private hell
Day after day
Year after year
Of emptiness
Of nothingness
For the first time
I feel alive
After finding
What was lost
Can I see
Or feel
I Am a fucking disaster